i spend a lot of my time looking at the way other people express themselves and i find myself kinda jealous. i wish i was as outwardly weird as the yachtys of the world. i wish i was as stereotypically cool as the migos' of the world, but I'm not. I look at myself and dont ever really see the spark i see in others. i see myself as the result of spending hours and hours trying to be funny because at making waves they would laugh at me and not with me. my sense of style somewhere between trash and "i read too much hype beast and my favorite site is ktt". i look around and I see people who's personalities aren't manufactured and I'm jealous because i dont know how this happened. i dont know how to express myself because I look around and i dont see anybody I can really look up to. i feel too bland. i feel like i never found myself and i dont know where to start looking. idk. i know you can smell it on me.